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Eternal Love

When I open my book ,
I see the ivy climbed up along my window sill
Expressing by writing to you ,
is the only window of my emotion ,
searching & browsing…
but when I turned my head back ,
you have already lifted up the curtain & went away silently….

The wind bells are swaying & ringing …..
telling you clearly my feeling ,
When I was thinking of you ,
the fine rain was knocking my window
and falling leaves together,
with my mood were always assembled in front of my window,
giving you superior performance on the spot.

When I am writing for you,
the noise from outside is always blocked
by melody of the old songs and light ,
in front of my window are always covered by ur dark long hair.

I cannot touch you ,
I cannot reach you ,
for me now are your voice
and mails you sends have been taped in the cassette of my mind, 
yet I see you in the things I do..
in the eyes I shed,
in the dreams I dream.

More often in the midst of the work ,
I stop & reflect upon ur words ,
I now see you in a different light.
Your words are the very essence of wisdom ,
you who loved me let share this secret ,
was there also a voice in the past ,
whose words were taped in the cassette of your mind
But hey dear there are still the dreams to dreams ,
the love to love ,
I will meet you again which we called Eternity.


P.S : This poem is actually written 6 years back for my best
       friend.You will find this in my 1st post as well,
       but I thought of putting it in a Poem format.

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An Endless Wait ...

 

Longing my Life with keen intent ,
commited in making the best of what obtained..
Bent in giving a full scale welcome for you ..
I waited  hoping you will surely turned up..this evening..

I waited patiently looking for you , hours did
slip by gruesomely ,and I yawned very restlessly.

At last the evening arrive and found you still
missing from the scene , my heart told me to
hold on and to relax thatyou will surely arrive.

As I gazed at distant palms counting time very
helplessly , hours past but your presence still
missing.

I waited for your call , you didn't turned up
this way aswell,the time trickled very slowly ,
but my impatience did mount.

I thought of giving you a call , but hold back
as you asked not to do so ..I was left with
very lil options.

Then I explained myself , that you might be in
some other situation that is making you to be
this way ..so I start walking ...and the endless
wait ..continued ..

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IF I KNEW IT

 
If I knew it's our last hi ,
I wish I would be there to share the moment,
well , I’m sure you will have so much to share
so I couldn't  let this one go away.

For Sure there will be a day tommorow
for the making of an oversight,
will pray to god we get a second chance
to make everything right.

There will be another day
to pour my heart out  and say the deed,
deep core inside my heart ,
I missed you day and nyt
I feel you in the dreams I dream ,
the breath I take ,
you seemed to have been infused all over me

But if I didn't get a chance,
and today is all I have in store from god side yourway,
Then I’d like to say how much I love you
and I hope you remember the days and moments , 
from the lil fights to ; gettinfg  catty.

What in the store , the surprise  for tomorrow no one knows
so today let be our chance to hold onto it , 
and get bathed into the memories of the past 
and the present moment And today may be  the last chance You get to hold your loved one tight. Don't hold on for tomorrow ,
its very unpredictable , so why not today.

If the glad day(tomorrow) never comes
we might get ourself in a state of disbelife and regret,
that we couldn't take that extra step and effort
for a smile, a warm hug, or a gentle kiss,
you might be busy for sure , 
but what if this turned out one last Wish.

I will always hold onto it,
So my friend take your time ,
come-out of what you going through,
I wish i could know the reason , but thats the exception..
keeping the finger crossed , to see you back as before.

I'm may have been rude at times ,
but that was never the intentions,
sometimes things go the other way.
I’m sorry,I hurt you at times
Please forgive me,
Thank you, or It’s okay.
whatever your take , just say it, Coz i'm holding onto it.

And if the day never comes , don't ever regret.
May be I'm not that gud for you ,
or you have some better things waiting to be explored.
I still the feels the way It was before.
It only has increased and will keep on , and will never cease.

Thanks for being such a gr8 friend.
Will be gud to see you again.
Just passing onto you a smile.. :-), hold onto it forever.
whenever feel not gud look into mirror and smile and remember the best moments will surely give you some think to think about that life is not that bad as we percieve it to be ,
its as beautiful as we feel from inside.

P.S : The above poem is dedicared to all my friends, close to me.
        I'm sorry if I hurt you feelings in anyway. put your comments
        if you feel. I would be happy to reply on that.




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Into Memory Lane

In life's journey from the very birth to last stop i.e death we do lots of stuff, good and bad depending on the situation , mood ..and other constraints and do things thinking at that instance it's quite viable in the happening of a particular event.

Today I'm putting some of the best experiences and experimentation in life which got me insane.
looking back to the childhood days , where life seems to be very charming and inspiration as the only things in mind were to enjoy it , there was no pressure to do something extraordinary , but there has been a constant lecture from parents to make me to sense my responsibilities , but I have some other aspiration to achieve , whatever comes in mind I do it , for instance it was some 21 yrs back (Hometown) when a Idea cracked into my mind to test how everybody loves me , So to do so ..I hide myself in the window in such a fashion that no one can search me out ..it was summer days too hot ..so when the time for lunch approached , mom n all started searching for me ..well all came near to me shouting my nick name , but all their effort went into vein as I was not moved by this ..so some more fun ..for that mom also went all over the fields to check where I may be most probably , and came back home and said she saw snakes and reptiles on the way and was very much worries abt me ..hmm looking at the progress I was in 2 minds to go out and give a surprise and secondly not since the chances to getting a strong welcome by a slap was most inevitable ...so i thought to waiting for some more time ...and later came out ..and then ..it was obvious I has a warm welcome with a Dashing slap abd was sunned by it , later i told everything for what I did ..so It was the experience I never stop laughing ...that .how i did it .

It was back in 1993 when I was Punjab with my uncle (phufaji)and Buwa , that time Buwa and uncle both were not present so I was one bhaiya who used to cook food for us so , with him while talking I bet that I can eat whole chicken in 1 go ; the very next day I didn't had my meals and in the night I asked bhaiya to prep prep it for me in a special manner i.e baked in the oven with chicken inside banana leaf and spices all over , that day I don't know .i managed to eat the whole chicken w/o any much difficulty as it was only food I had for the day. During the meal the only portion of chicken that troubled me is the neck it had only bones which were harder to chew.

The next similar kind of instance was @ IMA Dehradun which is quite funny , my bro ATUL was there for the training and I along with my younger bro used to go there twice a week , with all the stuff my sweet Buwa used to make for him. So one day he gave both us treat in the canteen there that tym I was non-veg , so Its chicken and burger and lots of other stuff , this was the phase I used to eat a lot though it doesn't shows over the body that it reflect other way.So we both were over chicken and ate all the chicken available in the canteen and asked for more , but there was nothing left. MY bro said AREEY BUS KARO , Kya Kar Rahe ..the Chicken was so tasty that we both didn't got to know we had quite a lot. so finally was great time over there and later Bro was pulling our legs ..so it was nice kind of exp.

Another instance was during the time I was learning bicycle , and the cycle was much higher in height than me to handle , so one day i was crossing the main road and suddenly i lost my control over pedal and I caught myself in the middle of the road in awkward position , then there was a Ambassador car cruising toward me , I was having my heart beat high as if i try to do something i will fall in the road and what to do nothing came to my mind i thought its best to stand still and when the car will passby will do my bit , but then car was almost had me it was coming @ high speed i thought this is my last moment Bhagwaan ko yaad kar loon .. den it strike my cycle and I fall down and I get busy with rearranging the handle of cycle in the meanwhile the car driver parked cared at one side and came ..Like I had crushed his car , and all from nowhere slapped me so hard ..I still feel the pain ..its seems funny at this point of time but @ that time it was very embarrassing ..I would have reacted smartly by running from there but I never expected that he will come and do this.And later when i reached whom all said from where did u have these marks over you cheeks , I said I just fall in the Bush on cheek side. If I would have said that my cycling would has been banned.
The next one is of the bicycle only when I was cycling @ IMA road and then there was steep cut in I shape and in fraction of a sec I turned my cycle there without giving a thought to it , cycle was on top gear high speed and turn was very sharp ..my heart was beating fast as I thought i would surely got hurt as brakes of my cycle failed too , i closed my eyes n tilted my cycle in such a way to avoid the most probable disaster of banging my head on the wall ..i make lode noise and when & I opened my eyes as it was quite a long interval ..and saw i made a perfect turn , finally I took a long breath and thanked god. But the question remained in my mind how I escaped from this w/o getting hurt and later during my education I found that its the centripetal force that made me to take that sharp turn just above the ground reference line.

Next one too of a the same above but its my most treasured memories ..i will cherish , it was school time and I was going to school Just half KM back one of My Chemistry teacher called me from the distant part and asked me to stop , then he rode the cycle And sit on the stick and we discussed a lot of things during the journey to school , it was Jamastami before that day so we discussed on it what we both did , so it was some kind of rare experience and Nice one.

The next one is of my school days back in hometown ( Srinagar Garhwal), it was 12th Board time , all the syllabus was completed and we were in class after recess some of of class mates went to the principle sir to grant permission of going home , and we were granted permission , but some of the class mates decided against it and remained in class we all left home ..next day after assemble we all were summoned in the class by our class teacher and asked who went home yesterday stand-up , it was January time like this too cold foggy weather ..and Sir had sticks in his hands waiting for getting started ..and its all stated 5 sticks to many sticks broken still the rule remains the same , stick was striking the palm and thumb area initially it pained during 1st 2 stick then rest three were just taken as they were presented...but later the pain was unbearable ..most of us were in saddest mood ..I was the lone crying ..I suppose though I was laughing In between as it was funny too , we never saw such aggression from Sir. As we didn't asked him , so we got the Gifts.But It was a diff exp all together ..
Next instance is of the same time and it was English period going on in the 2nd session , I was feeling a bit sleepy ..so literature was being taught by sir , it was about the shepherd and his seeps , of whom he takes cares like sons. So there was some line while teaching Sir asked me "whose stomach was paining"? I said Gunjaman (sheephard) , and whole class started laughing actually it was sheep who was about to give birth to her child , so sir gave some dose for that. it was funny since I was really feeling sleepy, but after that my sleep gone with the laughter.
These are some of the best experiences I mostly look back at times ..if you ppl have some of your, you too share as well ..hope these didn't bored you.



Thanks for the read...



With Love
Vivek


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